You all know I’m in nursing school right?  Okay, well if you didn’t know, now you do.  So, this week I struggled with trying to start my running training program while balancing the need to study for a Pharmacology test.  Last semester I struggled with my Med-Surg class and did great in Pharmacology.  This semester it is the exact opposite.  So far I am kicking butt at Med-Surg and STRUGGLING with Pharmacology.

When I say it’s the bane of my existence, I really am not exaggerating that it is making me miserable.  I did NOT do well on the first two quizzes and tests, which just made my stress for today’s test all that more extreme.  If I do not pass this class with at least a 75%, I will have to take it again, which really isn’t in our budget and I really do NOT want to spend this summer in school if I can avoid it.

Today I met with Whitney and my fabulous friend Jade a few hours before the test and had a quick review/cram session.  To say it helped me feel better going in to the test would be an understatement.  I have a difficult time just sitting, reading, reviewing, and retaining.  I do much better when I talk and listen and bounce the facts off of the people around me.  I also had my girl Jenny holding my hand and calming my anxiety right before the test to get right of all the negative thoughts going through my head in that moment.  How great are these people??

I felt confident about so many of my answers as I put them on the test.  I even changed two answers because I just knew I had answered wrong the first time (although I know you should NEVER change an answer from your first instinct) and I had changed them to the correct ones!  I walked out of the test actually feeling like I did well.  I wasn’t wrong!  I was able to achieve a 90/100, which is fabulous in my book at this point and I could not be happier.

Pharmacology may currently be the bane of my existence but I know that with the fabulous group of people I have around me to support me (and me them in return!) that I can conquer this challenge.  Nursing is my future, this is just one step on that road.