Category Archives: Me

Fear Is Not An Option

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Yesterday I saw a quote that I haven’t been able to get out of my head. Actually, it was on a fortune cookie of all things, but it stuck with me.

“Never fear shadows. They simply mean there’s a light shining somewhere nearby.”

How profound is that? Too many times I worry about starting something because I have fear. I don’t want to fail. I don’t want to quit and not accomplish something. You know what that leads to? Not trying anything. That doesn’t help anyone and doesn’t get any of us anywhere.

I’m scared to death of not completing a goal this year that I’ve put out there for myself, completing a half marathon. It’s easy for me to use fear as a crutch and an excuse to stop me from doing something great.

It was fear that made me believe I couldn’t question my place in the nursing program, not being accepted into the ASN but rather the lower PN program. It was faith in myself and the hard work I had achieved, along with the awesome scores I posted, that made me ask for my scores to be reevaluated. It was the knowledge that I worked hard and deserved to be heard that made me go back a second time, even with the dean looked at me like I was insane, and tell her something just wasn’t right. It was not listening to the fear that was ever present in the back of my mind that was telling me not to question, not to put myself out there, that made it possible for my scores to be reevaluated, for the mistake to be found, and for me to be placed into the ASN program in the spot that I earned (and receive an apology from the dean for the mistake being made in the first place). Had I not had that faith in myself I would still be in the PN program (which is completely OK!) but it would have taken me an additional year to complete my course work and be able to become a registered nurse, which is where I want to be.

That’s a big price to pay (time and tuition) to let fear have a place in my life and it’s not worth it. Shadows are okay because it means a light is shining and I’m ready to run to that light.

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Introducing the Gang

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I have a lot of plans for this space, including themes for different days, or at least some possibilities in mind.  I want to talk about all things modest, not just in my clothing.  I think you can be modest in so many ways, whether that be in food (which I have NOT been doing lately) and in your finances.  Budgeting is one thing I have learned to do even better after losing my job in November.  Beyond that I want to talk about my family and all of the things my life holds right now.

Of course if I want to talk about my family, it really seems like I should introduce them.  First, there is Gabe.  He is my husband of 13 years and the love of my life.  We met in 1996, got engaged in January of 1998, and were married October 24, 1998.  We have been through good times and bad, side by side, and he is still the love of my life.

Besides being the amazing husband and father he is, Gabe is also an amazingly talented author.  I am an analytical person and while I think my writing is okay (I mean, I can put together sentences and stuff!) it’s nothing like his.  I can write about myself and things I know (or heck, research for school and all of that) but he comes up with things in his head and I am immensely impressed.  I don’t have the level of imagination he has and I am always in awe each time he writes something new.  If you want to check him out I HIGHLY recommend swinging by his blog or heading over to amazon to check out his novel or his collection of short stories.  Not to shill for my husband or anything but I definitely do not think you will regret it if you do.

Now, he’s probably going to kill me for posting this here but one of my very favorite things about Gabe is his ability to laugh and be silly.  I think this photo pretty much sums that up and I can’t help but share that side of him with all of you.

This man put on my hat and then actually let me take a picture of it.  Yep, that’s just who he is.  And I love him.

The other two most important people in my life are the tiny humans called Aiden and Olivia (better known as Livi or Miss Livi).  Aiden will be turning 5 in March and Olivia is 3.  They are CONSTANTLY on the go and up to something. Aiden is in pre-school and learning every day, which is AMAZING to me.  I have always loved school and want my kiddos to have a love of education too.  Livi isn’t quite old enough for pre-school but she is definitely busy all the time and absolutely learning, school or not.  Aiden has a love of all things video game related and Livi could not be a bigger girlie girl.  He loves Mario and Lightning McQueen, while Livi is never happier than the times she is dressing up in her ballerina dresses or playing with her dolls.  They bring joy to me each and every day and are part of the huge motivation I have to be something better than I am.

So that’s pretty much us.  Hopefully I will be sharing them with you as much as possible from now on because I wouldn’t be who I am without these people in my life.

My New Digs

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I have owned the rights to this space since July but because of a combination of work, school, church and just plain life, I never got around to using it.  That is about to change.  My husband, Gabe, has been encouraging me to start a public blog and get my voice out there to talk about the things I love.  I have no idea if anyone out there will enjoy reading about the things that really interest me but I am going to give it a shot.  Right now one big thing on my mind, as you can probably tell by the title of this blog, is modesty and how that affects my life.  Modesty comes up in so many aspects of my every day life that I wanted to talk about all of the areas that so many people may not think of.  I also wanted to introduce some of the awesome modest fashions I have found because I know so many people who also have a hard time finding the great things that are out there.  Being modest is just one aspect of who I am though.  Right now I’m a struggling student and mom who cares about finances and fitness and just plain getting by.  I have a feeling this space will be an outlet and a fun place for me to bring out parts of my personality that may never get seen by people other than Gabe (and he already knows how insane, silly, nutty, frustrating, etc) I can be.  Welcome to my new little piece of the net and I hope to see you around.